Today marks 10 weeks pregnant. 3 transvaginal ultrasounds showing normal growth, normal heart rate. Today is my last day of progesterone injections. I know I’m not quite out of the woods yet, but my RE has already released me to the midwives. It’s an odd transition from battling infertility for almost 4 years, to actually being pregnant and possibly even getting a baby at the end!?? It’s unreal.
It’s scary now to think I have to do a lot of things.. Announce to family, work, “social media”.. when, how, and for some reason I really don’t even want to. I want to do an “IVF” announcement and put a rainbow in there but then again I really don’t want to deal with the attention that might create, but on the other hand I want others to know that they’re not alone and this isn’t just every other “oops” or “perfectly planned” pregnancy.
I don’t want to tell everyone “I’m pregnant” I know people are going to say “congratulations” and have noooo clueeee the amount of time and effort that went into achieving this. I don’t want to cry in front of people. I don’t want people to give me advice or start lecturing me on what to do or asking questions about if it was expected or what ever other uncomfortable question people come up with.
I guess every pregnant woman has to deal with this. I’d so much rather just let my belly get big and have no one know til the very end.. I don’t think that is professional though with work needing to find maternity coverage and all.
I know a lot of women still haven’t gotten to this point. I am extremely honored and blessed to have made it to 10 weeks pregnant. For a long time, deep down, I didn’t really expect this to ever come to be real.
My whole blog pretty much has been about infertility, so now hopefully I’ll be able to focus more on my “homestead” blog ideas. Who knows where life will take us.