It’s a cruel trick of infertility to feel so positive one day and have every thing crushed 24 hours later. It’s not really the end of the world, I still have 6 fertilized eggs, but I have this sick feeling now of them all not making it to the freezer. So much work, so much hope, please please please don’t be for nothing. I do everything right, I am so tired of working so much harder than the average “normal” woman and coming up short.
Of the 22 retrieved eggs
They were divided into two groups:
11″standard IVF” and 11 “ICSI”.
ZERO of the standard IVF fertilized 😦 😦 😦
6 of the ICSI fertilized, and 3 have some action so are being “watched”.
I will not get another call until next week the nurse told me.
I feel completely blind sided. I can’t believe NONE of the standard IVF eggs fertilized. I feel defeated that I lost 16 eggs in one day. I know its normal to have a big difference in eggs retrieved and eggs fertilized. I know 6 is still pretty decent number and a lot of women are successful with less. But damn does it sting. And of course its pretty much all my fault. I told the doctor to do standard IVF. If I listened to her and did all ICSI I’d probably have more embryos. We compromised with half and half. She warned us sometimes (5%) of couples with unexplained infertility have no fertilization with IVF and need ICSI.. but I wanted to find out if failed fertilization was our cause of infertility, and it seems to be. I’m trying to google WHY NO FERTILIZATION but am coming up with nothing. I really hope the doctor can shed some light onto this.
I’m going to brace for the worst and really hope I get at least 1 high quality embryo.